(Romans 12:1) Consequently I entreat YOU by the compassions of God, brothers, to present YOUR bodies a sacrifice living, holy, acceptable to God, a sacred service with YOUR power of reason.
That says it all. I am tired of feeling crumby. I hate the way I have totally shown absolutely no respect for my body by the things I eat. I am also sick and tired of my many many attempts to combat this illness. So, starting now, and with this blog to help me stay motivated and organized with my thoughts and daily food journals and struggles and whatever else may come out of this scattered brain of mine, I am going to change the way I do things so that I can live a long and happy, healthy life while in this corrupt system so I can stay strong and always be here for my baby and for my family (this includes my spiritual family). With this scripture being the main motivator. So..here we go. To start with, my confessions. Admitting I have a problem is the first step, so here it goes.
1. Several times a week (say 3-5 maybe) I come home with a fresh baked French bread and tear off pieces and dip it in Blue Bonnet Light (It is dairy free...fyi I am still breast feeding my food allergic son). I use that stuff like if it's some sort of dip, rather than spread. And today I have come to realize that it is margarine..the worse thing I could put into my body. I can feel my arteries about to close off as I type this.
2. I eat way too much sugar and have absolutely no control when it comes to that. Sadly, I have to actually put effort into eating too much sugar because I cannot simply go out and buy junk, since I have to eat egg/milk free, so I actually make cookies, cakes, etc and eat nearly everything I make within 24 hours. Saving only a couple cookies for my hubby and me eating a dozen or so. I also indulge in the most sugary types of cereals 2-4 times a day. (Eg. Frosted flakes, fruity pebbles, cocoa pebbles...) It's no wonder I feel miserable and tired and stiff some days. Some days I cant get myself off the couch without feeling my blood pressure drop and my heart palpitate. I stretch and my heart races. I have 9 FILLINGS IN MY TEETH!!!! There have been days when I crave sugar so bad that I get that margarine and mix it with some brown sugar and eat it with a spoon. I am thoroughly embarrassed by admitting all of this right now but I feel I need to in order to make any progress.
3. I love salt and the saltier the better. I feel that since my bp normally runs low that it means I am allowed to pour salt in everything I eat. But I must cut back, or substitute because I am not immortal. Garlic seems to be a great alternative. And Onion powder.
4. I have not worked out in a good couple years. I am doing stretches when I wake up in the morning which makes me feel much better getting up, but I have yet to work in a good exercise regimen. I have NEVER liked working out. I hate it with a passion. But I know it's vital for my health and well being.
Reading this you might think I was huge but I am actually nearly under weight which is not good either. But I feel my body is deplete of vital nutrients. I do not take regular multivitimins, and beings I still breastfeed I am surprised I am still alive and kicking. Especially since I do not have an dairy in my diet. Ironically I cook lots of healthy things for my son. I make him breakfast with nothing but healthy grains like whole wheat, quinoa, oats, wheat germ, ground flax seed and I NEVER sweeten his food with sugar, only agave nectar or fresh fruit. I too eat what he eats, but I add lots of junk and sugar on top when he's not looking. Or dip the pancakes in margarine. How am I even alive right now???? I am 24 going on 94. Well that's my story, and I will continue to post here and hopefully see myself make some sort of progress.
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